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♔ Tuesday, October 31, 2006
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i can't
i lack self discipline.
i lack self discipline.
i SEVERELY lack self discipline.
roars.
i was supposed to wake up at six today so that i could go to school early to jog. but i went to switch off the alarm when it rang. and i didn't wake up till valerie messaged me. so after that, i rushed to the toilet but i couldn't find my camp tee and pe tee. BOO. nvm, wore class tee. then just when i wanted to step out of the house, i couldn't find my house keys! search high and low for it. but i still couldn't find it. BOO. no keys, no need to get out of house man. and in the midst of finding my keys, i found my camp tee. ROARS. so i changed into it. and i tried using the long wooden rod my mum uses for hanging the bamboo poles to get the plastic bag outside the house cos it contains a spare key! TRALALA. and i got it. and when i returned home, i search my bag for the keys, and i realised it was in my bag all along. BOO.
TRALALA.
wow. i am so full of different emotions today. AHHH SOUNDS WEIRD :/
i felt nervous when i was in the room.
i felt disappointed after seeing her expression.
i felt i didn't matter anymore when i heard what you said.
i felt cheated when i knew you lied to me.
i felt terribly upset when i saw her cry.
i felt like a loser when i myself cried.
i felt a little bit angry cos i thought you didn't even cherish it.
i felt emotionless when i was in the audi before the interval.
i felt a little bit happier after the interval.
i feel tired now.
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wah. today is the last day of october already. actually other than being tired, i don't know how i'm feeling now. i know i'm supposed to feel something but i just don't. sounds contradicting. but hurhur. i thought it was something to go happy over, or at least be relieved, but no. it didn't work that way.
i remember.. i used to say how much i look forward to this day because of something. now, come to think of it. i was really mean. very very mean. i deserve to be slapped man. serious.
wo zhi cuo le..
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my boat sank.
and i'm happy it sank.
somehow.
