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♔ Wednesday, April 25, 2007
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i am crap :D
i shall just be blunt (:
i am irritated, yes.
with the manpower allocation.
nobody listens to what i say anyway.
like arghhhh.
not the first time already.
and it's really getting to me.
look closely at it and you can pick a thousand flaws man.
okay, i'm obviously exaggerating.
cos only she and she are correct.
but the point is,
everyone is selfish.
the rest is wrong.
and im so sian having to face this every week.
so so sian i dont even try doing anything about it anymore.
suan le. i'll just take what i'm given.
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i feel like crying now i dont know why. but dont worry, i wont :DD im just so sick of this. comp's over and they're not having training anymore. and i dont see the need for me to be around anymore. im supposed to treasure what's left of me still being in nysjab. i will treasure this last 2 months. and i still love being a part of it ((: i do. it's just things people do and i dont find it logical. it's a waste of manpower seriously. but who cares about what i say right. right.
not only that. our teachers-in-charge, frankly speaking, are just there for the sake of being there. and they like us to practise tender loving care to our cadets. thanks huh.
cadets are haha. dunno whether to laugh or to cry. sometimes i really feel like screaming at them and give them a good wake up call. maybe it's a little bit too late now. but if i dont do it soon, who will gave a damn about us after we pass out man.
my squadmates.. talking about this is depressing. depressing enough to make me break down. ROARS. we should stop harping on the same thing about the squad not bonding enough and everything. we've been talking about it since 2 years ago and now, we're still like this. face it. we're gonna stay this way. some people dont even care about stjohn anymore. while the others, they care too much and sometimes, it really gets to people. and training camp. sorry but i dont even think that we're one-fifth through. i know it's hard to get all 14 people's consensus on something.. and i dont know what to do to help. so i shall stop my bull shitting.
im all angsty and grumpy now.
it makes my heart boil even more looking at the manpower allocation.
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we are running tomorrowwww :DD
and im getting my stuff too :))
tralalala.
i like the pain i feel now.
cos it's pushing me to go the distance! (:
