思念是种痛。 & it hurts even more knowing time can never turn back for me, for us.
No matter where I am, what I'm doing, who I'm with.. I'll unknowingly think about St John and it's weird. Nobody knows. But yes, I'm thinking of you.
Sometimes, I sigh when I think about how 3 plus years passed like that. Sometimes, I smile when I think about the sweet little things my squadmates do for everyone on special occasions. Sometimes, I smile even wider when I think about how we hung through every training camp with each other by our sides, especially the one this year. Sometimes, I can just sit stoning while thinking about the whole process of being in comp team. Sometimes, I tear thinking about how things can never be the same again. And a whole lot of other stuff.
& I really give a big wide smile when I think about 8 July 2007. Yes, all our hard work paid off.
SQUADMATES! I miss times when we used to be so much happier!
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Everything comes clean. Everything shows. That I still love my squadmates the most afterall.
When you chose to build your own happiness at the expense of mine, I know that's not love. Not anymore.
一个人不懂什么是拥有。 两个人不懂怎么把握。 We could have, but we didn't.
