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♔ Saturday, August 04, 2007
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Sabbatical week is over ):
& the only reason why I'm sad is over is because slack life is over.
For the whole of this week, I've been stuck learning biology. Not that it's not interesting but yeah, I just don't listen to what the speaker says. So everyday I go for advance life science, sit at my seat and talk rubbish to tanyeelin. When the coordinator wants us to do stuff, we just do it for the sake of doing it and we never really know what we are doing. Slack life, so lovely.
I mean, I come to school without having to rack my brains solving math questions, without having to do compos and compre, without having to do practicals, without having to learn about the history of Cold War etc etc. I just need to be a guai student in front of the coordinators and not let them find out what we are doing behind their backs. I'm sorry cos I know sound like a really bad student here.
But yeah, this kind of life. I haven't had it for ages.
Especially since pia-ing for history sia that night, I felt like no amount of sleep can make up for the sleep I lost. Even so, I still take time to steal naps here and there. Cos.. I just feel tired.
And when I come home, I feel really free despite the fact that there is a Math test to study for this coming monday. But it never really got into me that I must start pia-ing like crazy for it. I mean, even now, though I feel like oh I must start studying already, but yeah I'm trying not to freak out too much. So I come home, bath, take naps, eat dinner, get up watch teevee, go sleep! Sometimes, I'll try to do a lil bit of work in between teevee and sleeptime but I never really accomplish much.
Yeah. So even though I didn't really take away a lot of things from this term's sabbatical, I enjoyed this kind of life. Life whereby I don't have to stress myself out from schoolwork, I don't have to worry about schoolwork when I get home, I get to take naps, I get to watch teevee, I get to sleep as and when I like. I know this kind of life is very meaningless, but I guess everyone needs a break. Anyway, it's been long since we had this kind of life.
And reality always sets in eventually. End of the week. Start of a new one. End of years. People around me are scary but I've gotten used to it already. Nanyang girls are Nanyang girls. Last few months left in Nanyang. I cannot express how I hate going to HwaChong in words. Let my actions speak for itself then. Treasure what's left.
After I graduate, my life is gonna continue with even more pissifying projects and mountain full (try comparing it to Mount Everest. I think it's the same.) of work and assignments piling up. I rather not graduate cos I know I cannot cope well with stress. Ah well, nevermind. No one really understands anyway.
Today is a friday.
But it didn't feel like one, at least to me.
I stayed back after school for a little while today, not doing anything. Hai. Just didn't feel like going home straight. I knew I weren't be going for cca but I just refused to budge my legs to go to the bus stop. & when I finally did, it was because I didn't want to hear my juniors asking for permission to fall in. I didn't want to hear the usual rantings from the ncos. So I left. Came home. Went to nap for a while. Woke up at 5.30pm and I was like woah. Cos waking up at 5.30pm from a nap is a bit early for me.. But the first thing that came to my mind when I saw the time was, my juniors are still having cca now. Today really didn't feel like a friday. I don't get the tomorrow-is-a-saturday feeling I usually get on fridays. Damn.
I think I just need time to settle my thoughts. Until now, I still haven't gotten over the fact that I've passed out and I'm already an ex nco. But time is definitely a good medicine for this kind of stuff. Mm.
This is random haha. Yu Hsuan never fails to make me smile and laugh! (: Our squad's 开心果! :D
RAHHHHH. I cannot upload the corp photos! ): Nevermind. I shall try uploading the campfire night one! Wth I cannot upload anything. Ah suan le. Bu yong jin. Shall try some other time.
Thank you
Yu Hsuan for always being so ever ready for anyone in the squad! That includes me :D
Thank you
Celia for sacrificing your precious time to help us solve math questions today during the lecture!
Thank you
Elizabeth for always being my last minute printer :D
Thank you
EVERYONE.
Last of all,
Thank you
Tanyeelin. I know it's a tough period for you now. You don't say it, you don't show it but I see it. I'm here for you, with you. We'll solve this, somehow anyhow. Go to your squadmates! They'll definitely make you happier. Mm. Jiayou!
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Don't know what you are trying to do. Not that I never tried talking to you. But I never understand. You won't give a damn about what you said in the past. Cos now, you're breaking everything apart and I'm sure you know it yourself. We gave in to you, we tried doing everything we could to save this but you never seem to appreciate it. You're leaving her with so many question marks. She's feeling lost but she's still trying. I see it and my heart aches for her.
Stand in her shoes and think for her please.
I really think there isn't a need for this. There isn't a need for things to come to this state.
I don't see why you must make things sound like it's over already.
It's not like we haven't been thru all this kind of crap.
Really more than enough.
If all the times we had in the past is not enough for us to sail through this, I don't think this is even worth salvaging anymore.
