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♔ Sunday, April 26, 2009
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matter of time
I haven blogged here for a few months alrrrr so I'm gonna do so now! Im doing really nothing. Or rather, even though I stayed home over the weekend, I didn't get any work done. I spend more time thinking about stuffs than doing anything else. I guess I just have to do this. If not, I'll spend time thinking and brooding over it when I return to school which I don't want to.
I look at all the undone work which I could have finished during the weekend (but I didn't) and I wanna cry. I don't know how to get started. I get so turn off whenever I see alien stuffs on the tutorials and I just give up without attempting to try.
I think I'm totally in a bad mood now.
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I just saw Hs's comment on my livejournal post. Yea I saw it (:
有些人經過我身旁 住在我腦中 在我心裡鑽洞
有些人變成相片 堆在角落 灰塵像雪一般冰凍
It got me thinking quite a bit again but I guess I've done enough of it over the entire weekend. I'm so gonna start training seriously and do my work diligently from tmr onwards. Later after I go offline (it's 0111now omg), I'm gonna plan my week's schedule proper before I go to bed yes!
I really think I can make my life a much better one (at least better than NOW) by organising studytime/trainingtime/playtime/sleeptime well. GO KONG I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT.
I CANNOT WAIT FOR TEAM DINNER. I WANT TO SIT AND EAT AND TALK AND LAUGH AND CRAP MY TIME AWAY WITH 2, 3, 4. I think they were (and still are) the first people to have made me felt so loved in nanyang. Though times are different, things have changed, we're still and will always be the almighty nync' 06. I can just let my hair down (totally no stress) and be myself in front of them yay. Yearning/Dying for 22 May to come :D
I think Hs's the only one who still reads my livejournal given that the frequency of me blogging is so extreme. I can't remember who I gave the address to haha but yea, I'm comfortable with the state things are in now.
I asked Ferly what a best friend meant to her about a week ago online. Haha I don't think I can find anyone who fits the bill. You know today when I was happily spending my time watching teevee, I heard stuffs which I've come to terms with long ago but I'm just no good convincing myself that I can do it.
其实快乐可以很简单。过去是我太过强求,才会让大家都不开心。I need to find the simplicity of happiness! & not be too demanding about certain stuffs.
Okok, I really need to go plan my stuffs now byebye!