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♔ Saturday, August 19, 2006
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for you, for me
i seriously don't understand. enlighten me, will you?
guess what? i was looking through the archives in my phone and stuff just kept flooding into my mind.
i remember sometime last year, after end of years. i was in school. oh we weren't supposed to go to school in the first place because the sec fours were having their prelims and extra lessons or something. but i still went to school anyway. hahaha. so i was just sitting in the canteen alone, studying first aid. met jiahui because she had choral night rehearsal but she left afterwhich. saw hushen and celia too but they left as well. so in the end, i was just studying alone in school, waiting for no particular person. lame. then i saw her! hahaha. and it started raining. apparently i was the only one in the canteen then. everything made me feel so lonely. the rain, the serene, the emptiness in the canteen etc.
So i started scribbling on my foolscap.
"The sky cried today.
How amazing.
It's crying like how my heart is now.
Everything's so bitter."
yeah. right after the rain got a little bit better, i started slowly making my way to the isloated bus stop.
eh i don't know what's the point i'm trying to convey but yalah. whatever. i just felt like jotting this down.
APPLE! WE ARE IN THE SAME GROUP HUSHEN! eh. hahaha. purely for entertainment sake.
and i realised today how detached i am from everything. neither here nor there. i belong to nowhere. i haven't been doing much to work on this but i swear i will. really. this ain't gonna carry on. must do something about it before everything starts rotting. yes! i can no longer relate to what you are doing, what you are writing, what you are saying. and this is bad. i cannot always rely on the past memories. things shouldn't be like that. and i should make the effort to go salvage the situation. (:
jiahui says i should eat the kinder bueno when i feel sad so i'll cheer up. yes i agree. so now i'm eating it. and.. nvm. besides, i had mushroom for dinner! LOVES. the button mushroom and the big black mushroom. (: teehee. kinder bueno + mushrooms = _____! (fill in the blank) teehees.
i'm learning to idolise myself.
