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♔ Sunday, May 06, 2007
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love ends
it's okay.
whether or not yall found out.
whether or not yall saw it.
whether or not anyone tells me.
i was intending to change it anyway.
it doesnt mean i dont trust yall.
take it or leave.
but i just prefer having a private blog whereby only certain people visit.
but why not yall?
there are a number of reasons.
and i really believe that we have enough problems already,
yall will perhaps be a little bit happier not reading my crap.
i dont know la.
yeah a relationship needs effort put in by both parties.
both you and me.
and us.
maybe all the while you feel that you've been putting in more effort.
and i feel that i've been putting in more effort.
i don't know who's right and who's wrong.
perhaps it just isn't enough.
it's never enough.
i still love you that much.
but face it.
i'm in no position to change anything now.
im disappointed in you.
then i realised,
i have no right.
cos most probably, yall are disappointed in me too.
and i'm disappointing all those whom i love.
i cannot stand you being so nice to me everytime smth like this happens.
i cannot stand you for not wanting to say anything.
i cannot stand myself for always behaving like this.
i cannot stand myself for being so emo.
i cannot stand myself for being such a shit friend.
i cannot stand myself for not being able to get anything out of your mouth.
i cannot stand myself, totally.
see it won't last one.
hai.
today jasmine asked me when's the last time i was truly happy.
and i couldn't recall anything recent.
i couldn't recall anything in the past.
truly happy?
it's hard to recall times like these when life is so shit please.
then i said smth.
and after that, i asked myself the same question again.
and i doubted my response then.
the main thing is,i couldn't find anything to say.
now,i have nothing to say anymore.
sorry i really cannot care more anymore.
im so tired.
let's all take a break.
因为没有一种华不会凋谢，不会枯萎的。感情也一样。
缘分有时候只是让我们有幸路过一处美丽的风景。
那我们就只是路过就好，不要强求，也不需要停留。
有些喜欢远远的欣赏，
有些感情保持微笑，路过就好。
至少我有路过那处风景，
够了。
