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♔ Sunday, December 17, 2006
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i am elmo's friend
i'm just like that.
don't care about me.
anyway, ma'am gen made my day today. hahaha. you know during the first parade, she suddenly crept up behind kelly and me then she told kelly "your bun very nice (:". after that, she turned and told me "your boots very nice (:" wo xia dao. then she added "see the difference when you polish and when you don't polish your boots?" so i turned and looked at kelly's bun. WOW. so round and neat! haha. then i very zi ran de look down at my boots! ((((: WHEEEE. it was (and will continue) shining ((: ha. cos seriously, i've never seen my boots shine like how it did in the morning. yay.
i take pride in my boots (:
so throughout the whole course today, wo you shi mei shi keep looking at my boots then i'll start smiling to myself. so retarded right. but can't be helped :D cos so nan de someone said that about my boots. rahhhh.
it will continue to shine ((:
okay. so anyway, we had our moi footdrill today. quite okay. then it was course project presentation. we shared the lecture room with AB. jiu quite okay also ba. hahaha. jiu my range of vocab is so bad. everything's just okay okay okay. haha. they said i talked very fast.
eh random. i'm suddenly reminded of my hair which totally sucked today. RAHH.
okay so after course project presentation was theory exam. rahhh. i thought i was doomed cos i only read thru the notes twice, not even making any effort to memorise anything. i was doing the project powerpoint for almost the whole of yesterday you see. RAHH. but surprisingly, IT WAS EASY :D haha. then later, it was..
DEBRIEF!
haha. so funny. and so random -.- i was looking at sir qing jun [everyone was looking at him lah cos his group was saying something about him] then i suddenly realise that he shares some resemblance to someone! OMG. shi ke ai de lor. then i was telling shinyi he looks like *ahemahem. but shinyi wasn't convinced. so i told valerie. and valerie agrees! hahaha. so cute (:
and everyone agrees that the goal setting lesson conducted by sir faizal was nice! yay. but apparently sir faizal has been MIA ever since that lesson. rahhhh. so sad. cos he's another ke ai de instructor. (:
valerie and i were discussing about elmo and emo during debrief today (:
ELMO IS EMO'S FRIEND :D
so therefore i conclude that i'm elmo's friend cos i'm emo! (:
RAHHHH. so pro.
*claps!
haha okay. so anyway, today's our last theory course le. (: maybe you can say that i'm happy cos i've never liked attending advance since the start. but still, at least i can say that i learn something. putting aside the course notes and the knowledge we gained thru our instructors, i think i'm more proud of the fact that i learned a lot from my groupmates. really. especially during the pulau ubin stay during advance camp, there'll always be people in the group who never fail to amaze me. not only my groupmates, but the people around me too. everyone (: i dunno why i didn't have that "i love cactus" feeling after camp. as in i just don't feel like the way others felt. and it was only today [the last theory course] when i really felt like i love them alot.
CACTUS IS LOVE.
zijia
shinyi
xinyu
charlene
me :D
claire [though she dropped out halfway]
pakmeng
melissa
minthu
jonathan
chenghui
weiliang
sarah
tongying
denise
mingjun
kelly
kathlyn
fardila
yay. i guess i really saw a different side of everyone today. including myself. i always like it when i discover something new about myself. self discovery (: and others too. make me feel like even though there are times when we don't agree with what someone/some people do/does, at the end of the day, we still love one another because we belong together [cactus (:]. that common identity. that's what i feel. ((: rahhh.
charlene, thankew for your candy cane! :D eh i think you won't be seeing this so i shall go tag at your board later! yay. candy canes make me happy. haha.
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oh. heehee. i just realised this yesterday. ((:
you can pick out the letters:
f-i-v-e from the word f-a-v-o-u-r-i-t-e :D
teehee (: i love myself.
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okay. i know what i'm gonna say later on has no link to the above mentioned but just take it that i'm crapping.
i know there are times when i suddenly keep quiet and i don't talk. i just feel like keeping to myself. and if possible, just sit at one corner and fa dai. you can say i'm not the only one who does that but i know it affects the people around me. sorry. but i'm really trying to feel happier already. jiu i'm constantly looking for things which will make me feel happier so i don't stay grumpy all day. i'm trying but maybe i didn't try hard enough.
whenever i think, i'll think of what happened that day. that long long wait. then tears will start welling up. and i'll go "i cannot cry" then i'll swallow everything down.
don't ask me.
cos i myself don't even know when it will heal.
dou shuo le,
i'm elmo's friend.
i've all along trust that as long as i keep on believing, something will come out of it.
but after that day, maybe not.
eeyer, why is everything so complicated?
rahhhhhh.
no, should be why am i letting myself think so complicated-ly?
rahhhhhh.
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kongeileenkongeileenkongeileenkongeileenkongeileen,
snap out of it okay.
