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♔ Friday, December 29, 2006
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chalet
i was wondering if i should post this.
rahh.
heck.
shall just post it ba.
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maybe i really can't.
maybe i'm just being plain selfish,
insensitive,
unsympathetic.
that year when she graduated, i knew it has ended. but yet somehow, the feeling wasn't that strong. maybe cos i was still young at heart, i didn't know what it means to treasure someone until.. you came into my life. and soon, i realised. i realised why. cos i found something else. something else for me to treasure, for me to cling on to. not a substitute, but someone very very important. it was just beside me, so near. i never thought something like that would ever be within my reach. never.
not only you, but four other people.
somehow, i looked forward to going to school everyday. every single day throughout the whole year.
you were part of the reason why.
regardless of what happened, life in school was a joy, then. because just one small act can make a big difference. sounds weird but it's true. i'm too used to school life with you around already.
and today, after returning from the chalet, i started thinking. how life will be in a few days' time? i'm not sure myself. it's bad to be reliant on someone. but when everything you do becomes a habit, it's really hard to kick. i want to throw it away. i want to throw everything away and start again. but i can't.
i'm scared.
zhen de hen pa.
i know yall will be there for me.
i know yall will lend me your ears when i need them.
cos we'll be there for one another.
but it's different.
you didn't tell me.
and i didn't ask.
cos i've always believed,
you do it for a reason.
it's always been like that.
you were crying.
i know.
i couldn't do anything.
she said there's a lot of things troubling you inside.
she said you just feel like letting everything out.
i dunno what to do.
cos i felt like crying too,
when i saw you cry.
all i could do was to throw you a blanket,
'cause the floor was so cold..
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thankew cpl yijing and staff enqi! ((:
for putting us up in your chalet.
YAY!
they are still as funny as ever <3
HAHA. finally there's someone who agrees with me that small boys are cute :D regardless of race, language or religion!
daidee, bridge, slapjack, zhong ji mi ma, heart attack, watch tv, THE COCKROACH, CHINESE CHESS, staff enqi's lame jokes, cpl yijing's abnormal-ness [weird+funny!], SLEEP!
thankew and cheer up! :D
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must treasure the times with my ex-ncos.
yes i did.
typed a post for the ex-ncos' squad chalet just now.
so that..
in future,
in case anything goes wrong,
at least i can still look back and reminisce.
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rahh.
wo bu she de.
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